Se Magnifique

Currently, sitting in the cafe with a large dirty chai latte, just finished a couple banana oat pancakes, and listening to Antonio Vivaldi’s The Four Seasons, if you aren’t familiar give it a listen, it’s a mood. I woke up this morning, in disgust, I haven’t showered in three days and I no longer have […]

Temperance

Currently, sitting at a coffee shop on Salt Spring Island, with a cup of turmeric cauliflower soup, and an espresso macchiato. It has been a few months since I left the comfort of the nice big house I was sitting, and have been living full time in my van. I took a few weeks off […]

How I got back home

Currently, sitting at a table overlooking the balcony that oversees the acreage of land that the house I have recently come to call my temporary home sits upon, on Salt Spring Island. What a journey it has been arriving to this point in time. It feels like the past two years I’ve been constantly moving. […]

The Gift of Grace

Currently, sitting in the dining room of my grandparents house with a cup of coffee and a belated Christmas dinner in the works. It’s been awhile since I’ve shared publicly what life has entailed, probably because it hasn’t been daisies and roses and I’ve been struggling with how to handle my self. I was reminded […]

Virtuous Development Part III

Three years ago I started this blog, and tonight I want to reflect back on the journey it’s been opening up to the public, letting myself be seen, and how my greatest tools have been my virtues coupled with my willingness to be vulnerable. For those of you that have been following me since the […]

Chapter 28

Where do I begin…this week has been full of hard truths and hard goodbyes. I am currently in Colorado Springs, sitting in a basement room I use to hate being sent to and I am reflecting back on this week and all of the events in my life that have lead to this […]

Notes of Darkness

I have come to realize a few things over the past month, and one very important observation, that I’ve made as I sit here on a plane going to my Papa’s funeral and to be a pillar of support for a very wounded family. I may not be a coastguard, or a doctor, or a […]

Shifting into Gear

Currently sitting in a coffee shop, for the first time in many months. It’s been a couple months now since I last wrote, and I fear I might have shook myself up more than anyone that read my post! Shortly after I posted that excerpt, I had many people message me and a few reach […]

The darkest night, the most radiant light.

Before you read this post, I must state that this could be quite unsettling, uncomfortable, disturbing, and even triggering. I believe that I’ve written in such a way that I only lightly tap into traumatic events, but if you feel at this moment that this won’t do you any good by reading this please […]

My Little Runaway

Well. Things have changed, ALOT this time… As I play Del Shannon’s hit song circa 1961, Runaway, over and over again, I am realizing that I have truly been running away from myself. Why is it so hard to be there with yourself? Maybe its because we associate being with ourselves, with loneliness. We’re afraid […]